death by chocolate?

Monday morning in class Andra gave a lecture on end of life care and a bunch of people cried through the whole thing and it was really heavy and sad.

I get the thing about not internalizing your patient's situation and instead just helping them along their path, but I only have patients once before they get discharged with their newborn so what do I know.

The woman who delivered the 19 week old baby last weekend is still in my thoughts. So is the man who got the lung cancer diagnosis last Tuesday, and the amazing man who I hung out with for a bit today during his second round of chemo (we met during his first).

I keep thinking i'm going to have some big epiphany about life and love and death and ohhhh this is why things happen but I still get up every morning and wonder why...

Thought of the day...Katie says life is really long so if you need to take time away from people to work through things it's ok. I think life is too short to have to spend time separated from those you love. Where's the glass half full guy when you need him?

The blog log:

How many new things I learned today at my clinical in the MICU: 0
How many online quizzes I have left to take this semester: 0
How many papers I have left: 0
How many presentations I have to give: 2
How many exams I have left: 2
How many times Patsy called me "Mariah" yesterday: 3
On a scale of 0-10 how cool my kids have been today: 12
How much chocolate it takes to satiate me when I'm using it to replace someone I miss: there's not enough in the world
Days til Thanksgiving: 2
How many turkeys exhub bought for the occasion: 2 (wtf?)
Days til my birthday: 21
Days til Hanukah: 24
Days til Christmas: 34
Days til New Years: 41