st. anthony, st. anthony i'm searching for a compliment

Ok...here's my whiny blog. Too bad it's not wine-y but that might be later.

I, for the most part, am an upstanding citizen
I try not to ever lie to people
I try to be there whenever people need me
I don't steal (except the occasional dark chocolate from my kids' Halloween baskets)
I pay my bills on time
I put my kids before myself the vast majority of the time
I take my puppy to the dog park
I take care of people who are dying by day and people who are being born by night
I don't use people for personal gain
I don't make decisions regarding what I will or will not get out of something
And I don't withhold information from people because I'm afraid they might never talk to me again

And I do all these things not because I actually believe in hell and am trying to avoid being sent to the fiery afterlife of doom (no disrespect meant to St. Anthony or his peeps), but because I want to do the right thing even if it's not the easiest.

A few people have me a little bit convinced today that I'm selfish and I suck. I'm trying to convince myself that I'm not and I don't, cuz I know I'm not and I don't, but I'm gonna go drink a bottle of wine (given to me by a nurse at work who doesn't think I suck) and reclaim my self-worth and inner sense of peace.

Quote of the day: "It's really a case of being comfortable with yourself because that's who you have to live with." ---someone from my moms' group. I'll drink to that.

Totally unrelated quote of the day: "Mommy, the word 'forever' kinda makes my head spin." ---Michaela, after I suggested she keep an assignment she did perfectly and beautifully forever.